“He’s here! He’s at the door. Mr. Bingley!”

people say but you can’t look at the past, just look forward and make a better life for yourself and the people you love. but when you come to a situation where you fall in love. being able to love someone is knowing that you love every imperfection down to the last cell in their body. looking at the past is what made that person, their past is who they are today. all their accomplishments and all the downfalls they have had, every memory builds them up into this wonderful person that just seems so perfect to you. eventually your curious to know how this person got they way they are. you ask questions and get to know them better. but there are some things that you don’t want to hear. some things that make you angry or depressed because they are the things that you feel you could have changed..if you were there. those things haunt you, and you would rather forget. but this is where people make a mistake. because if you forget, your forgetting a memory of them that made them who they are. when the fighting comes and you can’t understand why they would do such a terrible thing or say something that you never thought they would say, that’s when you need that memory that they shared with you. because if you forget it, it could have possibly saved that relationship that you had once before. so when people say forget the past, look forward to a better future. i say that i would never forget where i come from and who i really am.

And i will wait, like the rest, for this insomnia to pass.